[07 Nov 2005|10:57am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Blink ] Its been so long since I actually checked this thing. I miss lj. So here's my latest rant: I am sick and fucking tired of always being girls' best friend. I hate liking someone and then having them call me their best friend. It makes me fucking cringe. Maybe i'm a pussy and don't want to say anything, or maybe I don't know if it would mess up our friendship. If its the latter, I think im just going to do it because I dont want to be any girls' best friend anymore. Its making me fucking sick. Hope everyone is doing well. Oh yeah heres some fucking great news. The airline fucked up me and my brother's tickets so we dont get to come home for thanksgiving now. I'm so fucking happy you have no idea. [ when you scream ]

[09 Sep 2005|09:01am] [ mood | stoked ] [ music | Mars Volta ] Everyone should be waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay fucking jealous cause I get to see rickie tonight at BU. Suckers. [ when you scream ]

[26 Aug 2005|08:05am] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | The Format - The first single ] Livejournal sucks... Myspace has taken over. Only a couple people actually update anymore and nobody comments. Oh well I guess i'm just writing now to get it all out. My brother gets pissed everytime I dont say I like West Point or that i'm not happy here. I just don like this lifetyle, I don't like how people are...it's just not me. I don't know what i'm going to do. I should leave bbut its incredibly hard for numerous reasons. AHHHHHH i'm so frustrated, so much in regret for things i've done. Today is not one of my better days. Or this past week for that matter. I have to pick my major soon just in case I stay after this year and I don't know whether to do french or business management. I would def get insanely good grades with french but with businss management I would get valuable training for the work I will do wen I am out of college or the army, whichever one happens. Someone give me some advice. [ 6 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[08 Aug 2005|08:50am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Autopilot Off - Nothing frequency ] Wow lj, it's been a while since I talked to you. How is everyone doing? I got back to school yesterday from 6 weeks of military shit. I miss you all and please leave me one so I know everyone is still alive and rememimbers good old adam. Haha hope yoou all have a great day. I'll put pictures of this summer up sometime in the near future as in tonight most likely. [ 1 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[22 May 2005|07:57pm] Great night saturday...wow I'm definitely too lazy to type everything I did this weekend and yeah pics of the show later tonight. I know everyone is dying to see them. 5 days I come home and its on. Be prepared, very prepared... I met this sweet girl thiss weekend. She's rad. [ 1 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[21 May 2005|12:26pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Mewithoutyou - Bullet to Binary ] I saw Mewithoutyou and Bear Vs. Shark play last night. Be envious...the show was incredible. Pics to come up later today. [ 1 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[18 May 2005|12:13am] Hopefully I failed the shit out of this math final so I can come home for good. I just don't want to be doing what i'm doing right now. It's not for me. I want to have to get stuff done for myself, suffer through finding a job even though one year here will get me any job I want to start off. Go to USD for business schooll. Fall semester I won't be enrolled in college, just get a job and stuff. [ when you scream ]

Insomnia has set in [10 May 2005|02:22am] [ mood | insomnia ] [ music | The Blood Brothers - Cecilia ] I can't sleep...it's 2:30 and i'm not tired. This is weird. I guess i've found something which is keeping me up. I hope it is reciprocated, well not the lack of sleep but yeah. peace.love. [ when you scream ]

Stealing this from ry ry - ultimate alphabet mix cd [08 May 2005|04:28pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | The Neverendingyouline - Nora ] Help me out with these A treyu B lood Brothers, the C ursive D eath Cab E mery F inch G [??] H opesfall I magine, the J uliana Theory[?] K illswitch Engage L [??] M ewithoutYou N ora O pen Hand P oison the Well Q uantice Never Crashed R [??] S enses Fail T hrice U nderoath V [??] W hite Stripes, the X [??] Y eah yeah yeahs Z [??] [ 2 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[28 Apr 2005|08:13pm] [ mood | empty ] [ music | i dont care for music right now ] No OC tonight...my life is ruined. [ 1 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[28 Apr 2005|09:56am] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | Straylight Run - Extensionalism on Prom Night ] 29 days until I get to come home. Less than 3 weeks of school left. God it's so close. Everything has been going alright other than I almost punched my roomate today who called me a white, conceited, prick which I then proceeded to throw him against the wall. We're having a great time together. I shouldn't have got that mad but it's been so stressful lately with school and not being able to play lacrosse. Trying not to fail out, the grades are all low except boxing. I'm a p.e. god. I can't wait to goooooooo home. Thinking about transferring to usd after next year. Def a possibility cause they have a good business school. My coach is gonna be pissed, oh well eff him. Still single...sweet. How's everyone else doing? [ when you scream ]

[24 Apr 2005|11:10pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | The Starting Line - Failure by design ] You destroy me, so I can see why I feel so lonely when you and me could be forever perfectly perfect together. I know. Broken down in my dead bedroom, stuttering to pictures of you. I'm know that you can always see me. I saw you staring through my TV last night. So I'll leave my door open all night, if you decide you want to stop on by. Because you got to know who's been singing that song on the radio. The one that goes... (the one that goes) My friends all call me crazy cause I stay up late anticipating, and planning for the day I sweep you off your feet, I'd never leave you alone. [ when you scream ]

[18 Apr 2005|11:17pm] and I thought horoscopes were bullshit... "You've just about had it with being where you are -- and even more so with doing the same thing you do every day. Is there a chance you can do something about this? Of course there is." Dead fucking on. [ 3 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[18 Apr 2005|09:18pm] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | Quantice Never Crashed - Two Bullets and a Gun ] Yeah so today was just another day here in New York. I wish I was home. what, 39 days and i'm home though. That depends on if I pass all my classes, math is a bit rough right now. I hate about 90% of the kids at my school. Hate is a strong word and I hate these kids. The most anti-social, ignorant, faggot kids are here. They make my life even better. This place can suck it. I cana''t be who I am, I can't be a fucking college kid because of all the shit of this school and it's killing me. I just want to be normal aain, thats all I ask. [ 2 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[17 Apr 2005|09:52pm] [ mood | Hostile ] [ music | Underoath ] I'm really in a shitty mood. I feel like killing someone, myself first of course. Dont know how that works out but i could care less. This weekend has been horrible. Its just the icing on the cake of my horrible, insignificant life. I love it. How are you? [ 2 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[14 Apr 2005|11:19pm] Strained MCL and torn medial meniscus....brutal. I'm in this immobilizer where i can barely walk, its fun. [ 3 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[11 Apr 2005|09:20am] [ mood | confused ] The reoccurring feeling of emptiness is very much inevitable... [ when you scream ]

[08 Apr 2005|11:38am] [ mood | in need of change ] [ music | Thrice - Better Days ] www.cpusa.org hmm check it...very interesting [ 1 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[05 Apr 2005|07:45am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Hawthorne Heights - Wake Up Call ] I feel this overwhelming sense of inadequacy lately. So uninspire to do much but the fact that I come home in 52 days if I pass my classes motivates me that much at least. The man is kicking my ass right now. Hows east count everyone? I'm guessing the weather is nice, everyone is sick of Granite by this time in the year. Haha yeah I def know how that was. The weather in good olld New York is getting a little better; it's supposed to be in the 60's today. God, I hope so. Well, I hope you all have a great day. Peace. Love. [ 2 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

[03 Apr 2005|07:07pm] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Nothing i'm reading ] "Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called if "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen" [ 5 say you're cute ] [ when you scream ]

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